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[18 Dec 2006|03:14pm] |
i refuse to fuel this fire.
that's it.
sorry.
by the way, new livejournal soon.
for only real friends and i mean it this time.
♥
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| you know me better than anyone. |
[16 Dec 2006|10:51am] |
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so the other day danny told me he couldnt come back till saturday.
WHAATT i was really sad.
because he was supposed to come back friday.
so heres what went down last night:
i'm in my room, painting and listening to wild party like a dork. i'm texting danny just like always.
him: "whatre you doing love?"
me: "painting!"
him: "are you in your room?"
me: "haha yepp" [cause im a goon and dont know shit]
him: "*rock noises*"
me: "whatt?"
him: "AT YOUR WINDOW STUP!"
SO THEN SO THEN SO THEN i run to my window and i look down and my beautiful boyfriend that i havent seen in almost three weeks is smiling up at me and waving.
FKSDJFKLEUIFJSIFJAIJ!!!!!!
i FREAKEDOUT and ran downstairs and i had paint on me and no shoes on and my hair was all grossly pulled back but i ran outside of my house and knocked right into him and it was the best night.
fsafjasekjfkslajkl!!!!
he said he'd been planning the rock thing since i told him it would be the cutest cliche ever back in like, may.
for months!!
jfsakjfkeasj HES SO CUTE!!
ilovehimilovehim.
yep yep danna danna!
tonight is courtneys xmas party.
hahaha its going to be RIDICULOUS.
i cant wait.
i wish danny could hang out today not with his cousins. grrr.
but still, wednesday means HOME FOR OVER A MONTH.
by the way, i wrote a song on piano last night.
i dont know what to think about it, i was asked to play it tonight at the party but i probably wont.
in conclusion, i'm a goon.
mmmm but my boyfriend is STILL CUTER THAN YOURS.
♥
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[13 Dec 2006|05:31pm] |
i wish my hair still looked like
( this. )
maybe ill lighten it and redden it.
stupid summer making my hair a good color and then stupid hair for changing back.
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[13 Dec 2006|04:34pm] |
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i'm so sleepy lately.
i dont know what that means.
i've been getting slightly more sleep.
come homeee dannyyyy :( EMOTICON EMOTICON
i wish.
i wish.
i spend so much of my life wishing, i realized this today.
more than like half the text messages i send daily have the words "i wish..." in them
jfaskljfklsjkl.
today was really boring.
no andy holter in first period, i was sad.
no hilarious mrs remus stories in second, sadder.
no cute text messages from my sleepy boyfriend. saddd.
and then third period was apparently "LETS ALL CALL ANNA A WHORE LIKE 8923491482908 TIMES BECAUSE ITLL NEVER GET OLD" even though it did and fast.
but i'm really glad alex and matt sang almost all [okay, half] of OKLAHOMA to ted dacey's answering machine. that was very nice. as well as the performances today. OH. GOD.
and fourth period was stupid calc stuff.
the best part of the day:
i'm sitting in the theater classroom hallway when this tribe of girls comes in with a boom box yelling and theyre like "OH MAH GOD ITS THE GIRL FROM DEGRASSI" because last week or some time i forget i was in there with matt and they told us he looked like craig from degrassi and that i was like "LIKE THAT BLOND CHICK ONLY NOT SORTA" and they also "SORTA THOUGHT LIKE THAT PREGNANT GIRL... YOU AINT PREGNANT ARE YOU?"
anyway. today.
them: "WHERES CRAIG?"
me: "i have no idea where matt is."
them: "DAMNNN."
me: "yup."
them: "WELL YOU TELL HIM HE BETTER BE NICE TO YAH BECAUSE WE'LL GET UP ON HIM YOURE PRETTY"
me: "thank you very much."
and then i left. but hahaha i love those girls so much, they were like "STAY AND DANCE WITH US EMMA!"
hahahahahhaha.
oh god.
yeahhh now im going to make some tea.
and hopefully get to bed at a reasonable hour.
i might make some xmas gifts tonight.
YESS we get out two hours early tomorrow.
and film club, which will be fun.
yesss i love getting out of school.
MYBOYFRIENDCOMESHOMEFRIDAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYY
i love you.
♥
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[12 Dec 2006|08:39pm] |
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sleep
sleep
laugh
sleep
write
sleep
play a game and lose it badly because im an idiot at keeping my mouth shut
quite amusing though, and i know the rest of my class thought so
"ANNA YOU FUCKING SUCK AT THIS GAME" etc hahaha.
sleep
sleep
beep
beep
this entry is so pointless, cant it please be the weekend now?
this time last year was so different.
and yet sometimes things feel just so exactly the same.
i'm older but do i know more?
_AFS()_R)#_)#_$)#_$__#_______$#$*#()543534985902
yes, that is how i feel today.
thank you for listening.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
and i will never stop saying it.
♥
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[11 Dec 2006|04:32pm] |
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i update this thing too much, im cutting down.
consider that a resolution that i'll probably break.
damn.
this week will be good, it will it will.
today we watched a movie about the sniper shootings. i don't know why anyone would make a movie about that. stupid idiots.
dannycomeshomeinfourdays!!
im watching the office.
and. AND. i cant wait for thursday because ill die if something happens between pam and jim [JAM].
mmm.
yes well i need to make everyones xmas gifts.
i feel like less people will be getting them this year
just because i'm close with less people.
so dont be offended if i got you stuff last year and not this year.
dannys present is awesome, i bought it last week. and its awesome.
tshirts for friends, sort of like last year but better
trying to find something for corin, making alex a lasagna [as promised]
joint presents for matt and jack [as in, theyre similar [identical almost]. not marijuana.]
yacks present will be sweet too, when i get it all together.
and la la la i love you all.
im psyched for this weekend!!!!!!
i leave you with
"This morning I found a bloody glove in my desk drawer and Jim Halpert tried to convince me I’d committed murder. I think maybe he’s the real murderer…"
♥
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[10 Dec 2006|12:01pm] |
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ohhhhh shit.
oh well.
this weekend has been tedious to say the least.
i hate being in this house for this long, ughhh.
last night i went kristine's art show with yacks. i really really liked everything there, everyone's work was really well done and it was nice to see the arts in frederick actually being, you know, good.
i'm wearing pajama pants covered in tiny pink hearts.
if these pants could talk, what stories they would tell.
hahaha, god, i'm awful.
but i dont care i dont care i dont care!
this weekend will be niceee.
courtney's party saturday!
DANNY COMES HOME FRIDAY ZOMG!!!!!
life's pretty neat.
its noon already?!
ohhh shittt.
EDIT: hahahahahahhaha danny just sent me: "O mio babbino caro" hahahahah oh my god.
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[09 Dec 2006|11:28am] |
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and here we go again
with all the things we said.
and not a moment spent
to think that we'd regret.
so we just take it back
these words and hold our breath
forget the things we swore we meant.
LOL@LYRICSINLIVEJOURNALPERTAININGTOLIFE
mmmm paramore.
i miss my danny powell.
six days, i wrote him a long letter today and drew a picture
i cant wait for all the cliches i love in winter, and i cant wait to spend them with him.
fsajfioasjiojfsk im so tired.
i need to go to bed earlier i think.
yeah, tonight i think jackie and i are going to kristine's art show @ DU.
i want to spend the night at steffs but my mothers being dumbbbbbb.
:( :(
okay
well
i love you all
bye.
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[08 Dec 2006|06:10pm] |
john lennon would be 66 years old today.
why do people make other people die before their time?
give peace a chance.
♥
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[08 Dec 2006|12:09pm] |
i went to the memorial service last night.
it was over a hundred people standing in a circle in the cafeteria.
the girls played music and everyone stood, crying.
it was heartbreaking.
probably the worst parts were when coach wright came out to talk and couldn't finish what he was saying because he was crying.
or when mrs meehan's brother came out to thank us all for coming and broke down.
or when the football players all got in a huddle together and chanted for dustin. and when they all broke apart and only matt and corey were there, hugging each other and sobbing.
god, that was awful.
brooke was a wreck, it was terrible to watch. in a way i wish i hadn't gone last night, it was so horrible to watch everyone.
its so horrible that this had to happen. they still don't know why or how it happened.
afterwards i went to roy rogers and i just... wasn't hungry.
it snowed, which was beautiful and almost made me cry.
no, i take it back. the worst part was when my old best friend from kindergarten to 9th grade's mother saw me and hugged me really close and whispered "my best memories of dustin come from you, girl." because i was so obsessed with him and molly and i would always talk about it. that was the worst part, that made me sob.
i had to leave then.
i stayed home today.
i don't want to think about this stuff anymore.
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today was rough.
last night around 11 i got a call from matt, which i accidentally ignored.
he texted me "CALL ME RIGHT NOW" and from the urgency i got a little worried but i thought it would be a funny thing.
it wasnt. he asked me if i remembered dustin muse and if i'd heard about what happened.
i hadnt. Dustin and his little sister Courtney died in an awful car accident last night.
god, i didnt know what to say. i knew him, i've known him since the 6th grade. what do you mean he's not alive anymore?
his aunt called my mom [theyre good friends] last night and woke her up to tell her. my mom was a mess.
i got to sleep around 330 last night, and it still hadnt sunk in.
today was awful.
i walked into school and no one was speaking above a whisper. no one met each other's eyes. people hugged each other silently, or they sobbed. it was awful.
i walked through the hallway with navit and she and i were the only ones saying anything. everyone was silent. everyone was crying. it was like an awful nightmare.
i walked into first period and atwell had written "TEST POSTPONED" on the board and sat at the front desk with his head down. he was crying and when he started to read us the letter they had sent out about it he said "Fuck, i can't fucking be a teacher. I can't fucking read this." and put it up on the overhead. its horrible. we sat in utter silence for the first half hour of class.
mrs remus tried to make us laugh but broke down crying. lindsay was sobbing, and everyone pretended to concentrate on a stupid movie.
by third period, i was sort of okay. i cried first period and some of second.
i wasnt friends with him this year or really at all in high school, but we had classes together.
he was the first boy who ever asked me out, wayyy back in 6th grade.
i had the biggest crush on him, completely obsessed, for all of middle school.
we had history together last year and i was so mean to him because i disagreed with his statements about war.
and now he's just not gonna be around anymore and its hard for me to comprehend that.
i dunno, its really strange.
i feel so awful for people who were his best friends.
i feel more awful for his mother, who lost her son AND daughter.
Courtney was 13, a year older than my sister.
they were both wearing their seatbelts and no one knows yet what caused the accident.
its so bizarre, i never thought this would happen to someone that affected me.
god, its so tragic.
im gonna go to the memorial service tonight on the football field.
hey everyone, tell the people you love that you love them now.
i love you all.
♥
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[06 Dec 2006|09:07pm] |
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( a PLETHORA of surveys, with some sort of amusing answers i guess. )
stole from cassie!
today was a waste of space, of paint, of time.
ooh, thats a throwback.
i lost five pounds recently.
let it snow let it snow let it snow!!!
mmmmmmmmm snow!!
i miss you snow i miss you!
fond memories of snow last year include:
1. kelci and i with jordan and dusty on the SNOWTHRASHER aka falling on our asses down the hill
2. second snow, at kelci's house in braddock and being out on her deck overlooking middletown under a bear blanket. drinking tea! haha
3. this is not so fond because i was PISSED: my mom telling matt that if i said something mean to push me in a snowbank and he did it and i froze to death on the way home. i also made HIM lie in the snow though, so i suppose it was a win situation.
4. snow angels much? :)
5. pretty winter wonderland town of downtown frederick in the snow. The first night it snowed at the coffee co and jordan and i waltzed in it.
THIS YEAR IS GOING TO BE OUT OF CONTROL FUN IN THE SNOW.
mmm wintertime is so pretty.
okbye.
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yeah, my parents just told me they cant afford the d50 for me for christmas.
damn.
i feel bad now.
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| suddenly the world doesnt seem such a waste. |
[06 Dec 2006|03:46pm] |
i'm sick of this routine, im sick of being here.
i miss danny.
two weeks can't pass fast enough.
i only have a few things keeping me from going insane and they are few and far between.
i need to soak in a bathtub tonight, i need to go back to doing nothing.
i need to go to fourth period more often i think.
Dufffman325: and then while im awayy ill write home every dayyy
Dufffman325: and ill send all my lovinnnn to youuuuuu
Dufffman325: ill pretend that im kissinnggggg
Dufffman325: the lips i am missingggggg
:) :) :) :)!!!!! DANNNYYY POWELLLLLLL FSJKFJEKSLJF :).
i feel like i've lived so many many lives.
i've done so much and i've said so much and i've had so many things happen to me.
i feel too old to be 16, too much has happened. too many lifealtering decisions, too many abrupt changes in my world.
i'm so settled now, it feels like nothing can fuck this up, not even me, the queen of fuck up.
FUCK UP!
only, the bad kind, where i ruin things and then whine about it.
only not anymore!!!
its amazing.
nothing can ruin this, i love you i love you i love you!
pray for snow tomorrow.
i want to be old, i want to be in a house with only you and take care of everything ourselve, paying bills or playing games. i want to make dinner and sit in our living room and lay under mounds of blankets like we always do and watch television and eat chinese food out of cartons and come home at night to you after a long day of classes or work and i want you to be the last person i see before i shut my eyes and the first i see when i wake up. i want our lives to be together, i want to be with you.
ahhhhhhhh two weeks!!!!
iloveyou
okbye
♥
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[05 Dec 2006|08:32pm] |
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life is a funny place.
if youd told me a month ago that'd i'd be reading the "whats done is done" conversation matt and i had way back when and be laughing with him about the bitter drama, i would have laughed till i cried. but that happened today and it twas nice.
on another note
i dyed my hair [again]
yeah its reddish brown.
i dont know what i think about it.
im pretty sure danny likes it.
hahahaha. EH EH EH EH?!
i miss him so so so fucking much.
its not faiiiiiiiiiirrrr!!!!
but he comes home in 15 days.
and then AND THEN he doesnt go back until around the TWENTY FOURTH [24th] of JANUARYYYYY.
so thats fucking amazing, and im very very happy about it!!!!
:) :) :)
i cant wait to lie in bed all day and drink hot chocolate and watch christmas movies and sit by the fire and play in the snow and build gingerbread houses and listen to him play guitar and fall asleep.
oh god, why isnt that NOWWW?! :( :(
could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
why am i annnderson why am i blah blah that stupid shenandoah song is stuck in my head and its amusing and everything but now its kind of annoying.
i actually have hundreds of songs stuck in my head right now.
i need to go unify africa, but ap euro can fuck itself.
im drinking some tea and preparing for a longgg day of
CLUBBBB DAYYY!!!!
expect pics.
you took a picture and said it was good to document.
okbye.
♥
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[04 Dec 2006|06:13pm] |
oh, i forgot to mention that i saw a naked picture of a girl today that was the most repulsive thing ive ever seen.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY DID WE DO THAT?!?!?!?!
hahahaha.
oh man. atp is a pretty awesome class.
we also assembled Alex's Lost action figure, sang, and got psyched for courtneys xmasparty.
yesssss im excited!
yeah i love those kids.
♥
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| ""Dreams are just that; they’re dreams. They help get you through the day." |
[04 Dec 2006|05:50pm] |
"Dreams are just that; they’re dreams. They help get you through the day. Like the thing about the terrace. It’s nice, but, umm…I don’t know. It was just something that I read in a book when I was twelve. Uh, the girl in the book has a terrace outside of her bedroom and she planted flowers on it. I just loved that, it always stuck with me. It’s impractical. I’m not gonna try to get a house like that. They don’t even make houses like that in Scranton, so I’m never gonna…"
[she covers her eyes with her hand and begins to cry]
oh, the office.
i cant stop watching, why isnt my lovely boy here to watch WITH me?!
damnn, 16 days.
im sick of people here.
not everyone.
but some people here.
man.
liars and bitches i tell you.
liars and dicks.
i miss danny powell.
♥
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| yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun... |
[03 Dec 2006|01:05pm] |
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so last night i drove up to antietam with sarah and we drove through the luminaries.
its so beautiful and so sad. There are 23,110 luminaries set out, one for every soldier who died in the battle of antietam, the bloodiest battle of the civil war.
its so awful to think about every luminary being a 18 to 20 year old boy.
thats like, danny.
it was really moving and i dont think anyone really realizes how big a number 23,110 is. every turn in the road, you thought there wouldnt be any more, but there were fields upon fields of them.
i cant wait to reenact next summer with sarah, im very excited. fasjifjasifjasi!!!
i have to make a dress from 1862! yeah!!!
so last night this happened, and i seriously cracked up for so long:
answersinpages: :R
i ky we us: ?
i ky we us: thats not real
answersinpages: yes it is
i ky we us: WRONG
i ky we us: noone has a mouth like that anna
answersinpages: http://www.northrup.org/photos/crap/Animals2/low/pig.jpg
answersinpages: WRONG
i ky we us: omfg
answersinpages: HAHAHHA
i ky we us: i hate you more that anyone in hte entire world
i ky we us: that was so gross
answersinpages: haahhahaahhaahha
i ky we us: fuck you
i ky we us: /ignore
i ky we us signed off at 11:17:15 PM.
i ky we us signed on at 11:17:25 PM.
i ky we us: jk
i ky we us: but that was really gross
answersinpages: hahah
answersinpages: i typed UGLIEST THING EVER into google
i ky we us: hahaha
i ky we us: im surprised you werent number 1
i ky we us: BURN
hahahahaha i missed him.
in other news, DANNY COMES HOME IN 17 DAYS!!!
yesssssssss.
haha i never thought id get an apology from matt lee about the past few months and their awkwardness and i never thought we'd reminisce about the cheesy things we said to each other. i never thought i'd get to make things right with him, but we have and im glad.
im hanging out with my jackie today when she fracking [whoa, thats an oldie] wakes up.
and i leave you with this:
i ky we us: BUTTCHEST
answersinpages: www.facebutt.com/dusty_staley_.html
i ky we us: hey guess what
i ky we us: FUCK YOU
answersinpages: sorry
i ky we us: you should be
i ky we us: things will never be the same again
i ky we us: not only did you insult me but you butchered html code
i ky we us: n00b
i ky we us: go learn Java
♥
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| now from the way you talk to the way you move what is me is partly you. |
[02 Dec 2006|11:03am] |
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the sky yesterday was incredible.
so fridays are fun.
afterschool
sarah and i set up a MARIMBA!
which is heavy but awesome and we banged on that for a while.
then we went and got moneyz and jenny.
[as im writing this im thinking of sarah giving matt a summary of our day yesterday and taking 9384290489 years hahaha]
we went to the shipleys, quiznos, and stared at the sky for a good two hours.
we also went to bloom to buy matt the most hideous turquoise flowers we could find, sprayed with glitter spray paint which flaked off if you shook the bouquet at people.
so then we had coffee [eh eh eh sarah?]
and talked about... lets see... sex, awkwardness, penis, tampons, coffee, tuesday, and i forget the last one, there were seven. haha i love that girl.
yeahh then we saw our 100th police car, and drove downtown to see matts show at the met.
we sent his flowers back haha and dc asked if they were from jasmine hahaha i hope they someday let him live down aladdin.
hahaha after the show i told dc good job and he said "yes, its a whole new world." HA. HA. HA.
the show was very very funny [we actually annoyed the people in front of us because we were laughing so hard].
then out for a burger with matt and sarah at wendys.
we visted the lee household for a second and then sarah brought me home.
oh man im tiredddd.
i need to not stay up into the wee hours of the morning.
mehh.
im going up to antietam tonight with sarah.
yeah!
hi, im anna tringali and everything is right with the world.
wrongs have been righted.
im so glad.
( i cant have me without loving you. )
♥
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